Last Thursday afternoon I received one of those calls everyone dreads. My Aunt Debbie who is like a second mother to me and has been battling cancer for 16 yrs, was rushed to the hospital. It was unexpected….I know unexpected sounds funny seeing as she’s been battling cancer so long. But it was because the symptoms that caused her to be rushed to the hospital came on overnight. Once at the hospital she was put in a medically induced coma due to kidney and liver failure. This brave, beautiful, loving woman’s heart stopped not once, but twice, the second time God decided to call his angel home.
In the course of this pain and heartbreak I was able to see the beauty of love – I made it to the hospital and witnessed something beautifully heartbreaking – my Uncle standing there saying ”Forty years, the best years of my life.” And then when we were all leaving he laid on her, kissed her and kept saying “I love you so f**king much baby.” well seeing it broke me but it also showed me the strength of love, the pain of love and the beauty of being soul mates. My Uncle was by her side through it all and the love they have is beautiful. The kind you find in romance books, not easy, not perfect but the kind of love that withstands the test of time and transcends this world.
Please always tell those you love that you love them no matter what. My Aunt never ended a call or left somewhere without telling you she loved you. A fact that I am so appreciative of because those were the last words I heard from her and she heard from me when I talked to her on the phone last week.
My Aunt Debbie at the Houston Livestock Show & Rodeo sporting her pink cowboy hat
My Aunt’s death has hit hard therefore I emotionally and mentally shut down and escaped into the only thing that helps me cope, BOOKS. Over the past few days I have read several books that allowed me to escape from the pain and heartbreak. To all the authors that ever feel down ever wonder why they are writing, please know what you do, the stories you create, the talent you share with the world, helps many people through hard times. I THANK YOU for helping me deal…books I have read since Thursday, LOVE AND LISTS by Tara Sivec, BARELY UNDERCOVER (ARC review closer to release date) by Sarah Castille, RUNAWAY GROOM (ARC review closer to release date) by Virginia Nelson, LOSING CONTROL (ARC) by Laramie Briscoe, UNDENIABLE and UNATTAINABLE by Madeline Sheehan and COWGIRL UP AND RIDE by Lorelei James. I am now reading YOU REALLY GOT ME (ARC) by Kelly Jamieson. These books have allowed me to escape into the worlds the authors created, they allowed me to smile, to cry and they allowed me to laugh (GOOD LORD Tara Sivec’s LOVE AND LISTS had me laughing so hard my daughter came to my room because she thought I was crying).
To the Guilty Pleasures readers and reviewers, thank you for your patience, thank you for your prayers, thoughts and words of comfort. I hate not posting anything during the week, but my mind was not in it. The funeral and burial are this week and once I get through them I will start focusing on all things GP again. I know there are some contests that need winners and I will get that all taken care of sometime this week.
THANK YOU AGAIN!!!
My Aunt absolutely LOVED Carrie Underwood and this is such a fitting song.